lets go back a couple of days. i haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately. something big could be in the works, and when/if it progresses i will share it, until then that's all i will share. i function best with 7 or 8 hours of sleep. i'm pretty sure the last time i had 7 hours of sleep was last friday night. i'm hoping that tonight i'll do some catching up and get to bed early. anyways.
i really didn't want to go to gym tonight. just when i think the decision of getting up and going to workout will be easy, i find myself having to motivate myself as if it is my first ever workout. i really don't like the feeling of having to talk myself into going to the gym, but such is life. and we all do things we don't want to do. so i went. my plan was to do zumba at 5:30pm. i don't really like this zumba instructor, but i convinced myself to go and that the 60 minute class wouldn't kill me, and that if anything it would be some good cardio. so i arrive to class, and the instructor is late. a couple of personal trainers come in to warm us up and i just wasn't feeling it. it was at this point in time that i felt like leaving. just walking out of the gym without even working out. but i knew how lame that would be. i mean really, who goes to the gym and doesn't work out?!
instead i did something else i've never done. i walked out of the studio and over to the cardio equipment and got on the elliptical. i told myself i would settle for 30 minutes. i ended up doing 45! i thought about doing some time on the treadmill too, but told myself that was enough. 45 minutes on the elliptical is better than not working out at all right? right.
when this week started i thought that maybe i would only get in four workouts. but i'm happy to know that i'll get in my normal five.
let it be known that i still have to motivate myself, that i still have to push myself, that i still have to get my butt out the door. yes these moments are much fewer than what they used to be, but i do still have them. and i'm proud to report that 99.9% of the time i do make the choice to get to the gym rather than stay home.