week 21: fried food

fried fish, fried shrimp, french fries, spring fling cake, pasta salad. these are foods not on plan. these are foods i have consumed this week. what's a girl to do? blame her period, of course. makes sense, right? well of course i can't blame that factor alone. i'll also blame my poor planning. even though food this week was bad bad and even more bad, my workouts were good. and majority of the food in between the bad food was good food. with all of those things combined, resulted in a 1 pound gain. all things considered, i am happy. well happy isn't the right word, but i'm not going to beat myself up over it. i'll move on to the new week, and focus on that.

i wish i could go back to that feeling of when i first started this plan. when cheating wasn't an option. where i was still learning the details of the plan, had the excitement of doing something new. being excited over seeing results every time i went into slimgenics. you know kinda like when you start a job. you work really hard to do good at it, to get results, to impress your boss, your peers, yourself. you feel proud and excited when you meet your accomplishments. i had all of those feelings when i started slimgenics. i'm trying to get my head back at that mental place of the beginning. because that's when i feel i was the strongest. obviously their is no going back in time (if only) but i can get that excitement back. i know i can do it. i've lost 43 pounds on this plan in 21 weeks, 2 pounds a week. not bad. but just imagine what the numbers could have been had i fully followed plan? had no mix ups? coulda woulda shoulda. but this life. life is full of mix ups. regardless of how much you plan. nothing goes as planned. i will continue to try. and i will finish this journey. i've been deviating a lot from plan. selecting food not on plan, but food that is still healthy and low calorie/low fat. i feel like i'm teaching myself what life will be like once i begin the maintain phase. which is great, but i'm not on the maintain phase yet. i'm still in the lose weight phase. so yes, i am feeling good that i'll be able to maintain. but i need to finish losing first. which has created this cycle i'm in, this cycle of sabotage. i need to find the motivation in me to get back to what i paid these people for. to teach me what to eat. simple, right? the simple answer, is yes. onward and upward i go.

4.5 mile jog/walk 60min
532
abs/legs/arms/back - weights 30min
+1lb