Saturday, February 5, 2011

my journey

i had dinner with my dear friend Sarah last night. she asked me, "so where is April in her 'April Journey?'" good question Sarah! lately i've really struggled with this question and answer. i think about it often. i do feel mentally prepared to lose weight again, unfortunately i'm just not doing anything about it. mainly because i'm happy. i love my life right now. i've thought about started strictly on slimgenics again, and my life when i started that program last March. if you compare my life to last March to what it is now...there are some major differences. my point is this, i don't see myself doing slimgenics in this new life. but i think that i will try it, because i know it works. i'm ready. i need to GO.
over the holidays i felt as though i was gaining weight. then i got sick. when i went to the doctor for the first time i was 100% expecting the scale to be in the 180's, and me to feel just horrible about gaining so much weight. i'm not too sure why it is that i felt this way probably because i figure the scale goes up more than it seems to go down, but all of my clothes still fit. i suppose we just set ourselves up for failure. well i was pleasantly surprised when the scale read 179...a 4 pound gain from my lowest weight, in October of 175. "not bad" i said to myself. then a week and a half later i went to the doctor again. this time i thought for sure i would be in the 180's. the scale read 176...i was SO happy about that. to see the scale go down...it felt good. good like "i want to keep going good..." i want to continue to see the scale go down. get below 175...go back into uncharted territory. i have no idea what i am right now. that visit to the doctor was almost 3 weeks ago...and realizing that i wish i was watching my diet because i could easily be 6 pounds down...i could be 170.
lets get back to basics. where is April in her journey? the simply answer is: I'm still in it. I haven't given up. lately i've had a few realizations and updates that i need to share, because this is my journey. because the answer isn't as simple as that. and soon i'll share the more complicated answer.
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6 comments:

sarahlove said...

So wonderful to see that you are still in it. :) I was starting to wonder...

I can see that you are having fun and happy with your life but I also know that you love reaching the goals you have set for yourself. Keep believing that you can do it. Because you simply can.

Looking forward to the longer version of your latest realizations.

the emily said...

Sounds like a good place to be for now.

Sarah Zook said...

life is a journey, not a destination, and full of adventures, eh? It's funny that sometimes we can overlook how we are allowed to evolve. I love being your friend as we both evolve. Cheers to journeys!

Rachel said...

What a great place in your journey to be! :-)

Jimmy said...

Just a word of encouragement for you on your journey! You've made it a good one.

Anonymous said...

Just getting caught up on your blog... Thanks for sharing your journey with us, cuz. Very inspiring as always. -Love Kari