i'm slowly learning to not beat myself up, because it truly does no good. this journey is meant to be a positive one, and a learning one. if i focus on all the negativity and my failures i'm bound to give up, and that isn't an option. so rather than do that, i just move forward. on top of that, i am just now realizing that i am doing this. that this will get done. i was having an email conversation with my cousin last week and she asked how i felt about this weight loss. i responded by saying something in the effect of: i can't believe that i am actually doing it. i'm definitely still in shock over the whole thing. i often wonder if their will be a time where i won't picture myself as the "fat girl". because that is who i have always been. if i'm not that, then what am i? honestly, i don't know. it just seems like that label as always been part of me. and not that i have to replace it with something, and i know that i am many other things, but it just seems as though that has always been an identity that i've always carried with me. so much to learn about the new me! it's all exciting. i'm looking forward to keep on, keepin' on.
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4 comments:
A very healthy outlook, April. This is a life change, and so of course you'll cultivate a new outlook on life and yourself. Love you!
...Ditto what Nikki said. Great outlook April! Each day is a new day and its just as important that you allow yourself some realistic flexibility in your progress as it is to work hard to reach your goal. Just like you would with any major life changing event, you'll adapt. Just enjoy the adventure!
Love Kari
April . . . You've come so very far and I've said and will continue to say "We are so proud of you and You are our inspiration".
Your mental thinking of how you see yourself and how you think of yourself is important - don't underestimate that power.
You will find yourself . . . I know that to be true.
You will find your way and we all already see your growth and self-confidence just getting better.
Love you, miss you MOM
SO much to learn but that's what will keep you growing and thus enriching your life!!! Amazing.
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