i talked to a friend at work about my struggle, and she thinks the weight isn't coming off because i'm not eating enough. i don't get that. that my body is in starvation mode. does that mean my body has been in starvation mode for the past year? now i know that doesn't mean i should go out and eat like crazy. i get that a lot of it is what you eat. i get it, i do. but why, why is all of my hard work not reflecting on the scale? it's depressing. and it got me down today. really down. it is so frustrating. to work so hard for z-e-r-o. to work for nothing. granted in two weeks when i weight in again i could have a completely different tone, and hopefully this work will eventually catch up and the number will actually show on the scale. but until then, i'm just mad.upset.frustrated. i don't get it. i just don't.
i suppose the good news, is that i won't quit. i'm pretty much addicted to the gym at this point in time. but i just wish i could see my work paying off.