i have lots of feelings about this. without sounding too dramatic, i feel like my life changed this past summer. not because of any one thing, in fact i'm not even too sure why i feel this way i just know that i do. more importantly i'm the one that changed it. nobody else. granted over the course of this past summer i have made some friendships that i feel have made a huge impact on my life, and will continue to do so. but how i've changed as a person over the past few months is my doing. and i like it. i like who it is that i have become.
one thing that i have found that i love about getting older is being truthful. truthful to myself, and honest with others. i love having conversations with people that i have always wanted to have but was too afraid, but now i have let that fear out the window. i can talk open and honest about my feelings, and just let it all out. it is comforting to know that my friends (new and old) accept me the way that i am, and gives me more confidence in my friendships because of this.
i feel like a completely different person. not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. it's weird that my life is changing, but in what direction, i don't know. i suppose their is only so much i can do. right now i feel as though i'm working on appreciating what it is that i have. enjoying it. not questioning it. letting go, and realizing that i'll end up exactly where it is that i'm suppose to.
in lots of ways i feel like this journey i'm on is just beginning. almost like the calm before the storm. like something big is about to happen, but i don't know what. what i do know is that i'm having a blast right now in my life, and that i haven't felt this way in a really long time. i feel good, happy and content. i feel ready for fall, and a new season of change!
barbell strength 60min