It was a year ago today when Chris proposed. I've gone from engaged to married, and it feels so good. With the world of thanks going on around us, I'm so thankful for so many things. The past year has truly been one huge blessing in my life. Not only have I been so blessed beyond my wildest dreams, the last year has been life changing.
Over the weekend Chris and I went to go see Breaking Dawn Part II. We watched the first on Friday night so Chris could be up to speed, and it was great to re watch it before we see the second part. I really liked the movie. The additions that they added were great visually. "Breaking Dawn" the book is my least favorite, and the part I enjoyed the most is when the narrative is told from Jacob's point of view. I had hoped that somehow they would show this in the movie (although I'm not too sure how), but there was no mention in it.
The end truly got me thinking. The ending was done really well. I loved how they went through each character in each movie. Truly showing the creative side of what this movie has touched. During the end I had to do everything in me to not break down and ball. I somehow held back all of my tears, but I wanted to just sit and cry. Seeing this movie and seeing how each significant character goes on in life with their Happily Ever After is just so perfect. Of course, I get it, it's a movie, based purely on all things fiction, and life isn't perfect, but I just love a happy ending. And while I'm thinking about Bella, Edward, and Jacob's happy ending, my mind drifts to my happy ending. Then I went back to a different emotional state that was also triggered by the ending of a movie.
I remember when I went to go see the Sex in the City movie with my friend Sarah in the early part of 2008. I was a horrible version of myself at that time, and at the end of the movie I bawled. I just sat in my seat and cried and cried. I was hurt that all of the characters in Sex in the City got their happy ending, WHEN would I get MINE! I was questioning everything then. I wasn't in a good place physically, mentally, emotionally. I definitely didn't love me then, why would I expect love from someone else?