sunset from atop Sandia Peak TramYou have to find and feed the right nutrients for everything in your life. In this particular instance I'm not talking about food. I'm talking about love.
I'm trying to not beat myself up about not losing 30 pounds last year or for only going to the gym 146 times. Or for not completing any of my new year's resolutions. Or even the change in my blog.
Writing in my blog to keep track of my workouts has been something I've done for the past three years! I gotta say this is going to be a hard habit to break. But change is good. Especially the change over my life over the past two years. My blog definitely has served the purpose I wanted it to over the past three years...keeping me accountable with my workouts and my life in general. And well, I feel confident that I no longer need that accountability in my life anymore. Which I guess is my main motivation for no longer doing the write-a-blog-for-each-workout- thing anymore.
I am realizing my shift in priorities. And need to do the appropriate action because of the new priorities in my life. My friend Sarah was quick to point out that "you were busy starting a completely new life. Now just integrate fitness back into it now that you and Chris are solid." And she's right. Love is obviously important to me, and true love takes time. And I have spent the past 7 months feeding that love and making sure it was right for me. I had to water it, and nurture it, just as if I was taking care of anything else in life. And not to say that I won't be doing that for the rest of my life (especially now that I am getting married!), but the beginning is when the foundation is built, and that is what is going to keep us going strong for the rest of our lives. Exactly like creating the habit of working out or eating healthy, or creating any new relationship. You can't expect to workout once a month and have that turn into a habit or expect to lose any weight. Just like you can't spend one evening with someone once every month or so and expect to fall in love. You have to spend quality time creating all aspects, especially when it has to do love.
And because I have done that, I'm working hard on not giving myself a hard time for not working out as much or for not losing any weight, because what was creating is so much better than that. I have found a love that will last me the rest of my life, I have found my future husband! And for me that is so much better than fulfilling my new year's resolution. Because what I got was something that wasn't entirely up to me, but about someone new in my life.
And now I have a new challenge ahead. I need to work on finding a balance. Because I do want to put more focus on my weight loss, because I do want to be thinner for my wedding. I also need to focus on my growing relationship with Chris, along with planning a wedding. Three big things, that all need a lot of attention in the coming months.
It's a lot of pressure wanting to do it all...lose weight, spend time with Chris, plan a wedding, cook, and keep a clean house. Along with my other relationships and other miscellaneous items.
Although not a bad problem to have this will be my challenge for 2012.
I do have plans in place for all of the above, and once I get something going, I'll definitely share it.
All of these are things I have thought about, and I've probably thought about writing these blogs about my love and my wedding, way before they were even a possibility, and I feel it is truly a blessings that I can finally write about them and have them be true, and have this be my life!
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