Thursday, July 28, 2011

an introduction

Ugh! Talk about getting behind. I have the past two weeks to write about and everything in between. In general I feel so overwhelmed and it is important for me to document it all because I honestly don’t want to forget a thing! But first I’m going to cover some basics.

Let me introduce you to Chris…

Chris is my boyfriend.

As simple as I want to make this (as Chris would say KISS it {Keep It Simple Stupid}) for me this is a big deal. He realizes this, and knows that it’s important for me to get this out there. Rather than continue by calling him by C. (Or sea as my Uncle John says.) As Chris would say he isn’t going anywhere (he usually needs to reassure me daily, although I am getting better), so I am putting it out there for the world to see. Not that I haven’t hinted at it in past posts, or taken the word “single” out of my heading. Let the truth be known that I have a boyfriend and that I am somebody’s girlfriend.

Everything is so so great. And it’s important for me to take the time and recognize that. I truly appreciate Chris. Everything that he is, and everything that he has already given me in the short time we’ve been together. I feel as though he’s truly been there by my side since we met on May 21st. He has been part of my everyday life since, and even though I know my life was great before I met him, I truly feel like I can’t remember my life without him.

Chris has brought a world of emotion into my life, all of it good. It’s a strange feeling always wanting it, but never thinking it would happen, but always hoping that it would. How I’ve always pictured this time in my life, MY TIME, as this wonderful feeling. Imagining all it could be. But what I’ve been given is so.much.more.

I’m left in awe and wonderment of it all.

So much more, that I often question it. I let my emotions get the best of me, rather than just accepting it. That YES, this is my life. That yes I am worth it, that I need to stop questioning if I deserve all of this. Because often that is what I do. And that is draining for both myself, and Chris.

I've been surprised and shocked by this guy. So many great things that have happened, are happening, and what I hope will happen. I feel so lucky and fortunate to feel the way that I feel. I'm looking forward to this moment right now, and relishing in the feeling of love.
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Rachel said...

I am so, so happy for you April!

sarahlove said...

Your post oozed of butterflies and giddiness! Relish away my friend, you deserve it! Now are you ready to change your blog to:

aBlueSoulNoMore@blogspot?? ;)

Chris, nice to meet you! You keep reassuring my friend that you aren't going anywhere. She's a keeper, hold on to her tight!!! You lucky lucky man!!

Nikki said...

that's awesome!

Jimmy said...

Sheesh. I hate mushy stuff but even I have to tell you how happy I am for you.

Tammy said...

I am sooo happy for you!!:) You two look great together!!

Anonymous said...

Yes, Chris you are a lucky, lucky man in deed!!!

Can hardly wait to hear more . . . soon, real soon please.

Love and prayers and thankfulness,

the emily said...

Awww April, what a sweet post. Feels like a long time coming, and so well deserved!