I've become that person. The person who has a blog but doesn't write in it! I've become my own worse nightmare. Am I being a little bit dramatic?, yes. But still, I never really thought I would be the person who would go to writing 5x's a week, to once a week (if that). Sorta like working out. I never thought that after having the habit of going to the gym 20x's in a month for two straight years, I would be the person to only go once a week (if that).
It's obvious that my life is changing, has dramatically changed. But does that mean I should let two things that I enjoyed doing in the past, be reflective of my present, and almost take notice in my future? For me, the honest answer is, no. Will some things take a shift in priority?, absolutely. I miss my workout's, and I miss my blog. I know that I won't be able to go to what I used to do: blog 5 nights a week, and workout 5 times a week. This isn't realistic. I have a new life, and I need to bring these two loves into this new life with the right amount of balance.
A new month is coming. Spring is coming, the time change is coming. Warmer weather is coming! I can not even tell you my excitement about this.
I have a plan, and have had a specific plan for awhile now. March will be the month of actual execution.
Chris and I have been living together for 7 months now. Things are great, we're getting married in another 7 months...wow doesn't 7 months ago seem like a lifetime ago?, but that the next 7 months are just going to fly by?! Crazy.
Anyways. I have some serious goals that I need to accomplish. When I ordered my wedding dress at the end of January, I was sized between a 16/18 (keep in mind wedding dresses run small), I ordered a size 14. The dress is due to arrive at the end of May/beginning of June. Which leaves me March/April/May to get down to that size 14. Once the dress arrives in the store I have 15 days to go in, try it on (make sure it is the right dress), and pay off the remaining balance. I want my dress to fit me when that happens. The actual alterations of the dress don't need to happen until end of July/beginning of August. ...which at that time, I'm hoping to be even smaller.
This is my first step of change. Admitting that I need to ...have to lose weight. Putting it out on my blog for the world to see, to hold me accountable. It's ridiculous really, because just about every time I go to eat something I have mantra go off in my head "wedding dress, wedding dress, wedding dress..." Unfortunately that mantra running in my mind has yet to be completely effective, but I can confidently say that I'm mentally ready. Ready to get back on the horse and finish what I started three years ago, and truly reach my goal of an ending weight of 150/155. I still have dreams of saying "I've lost 110/115 pounds". For my own mental well-being I need to complete what I've started, and finish what I set out to do so long ago. I need to be able to say that I did what I said I was going to do. Actions speak louder than words, and it is time to take action.
I have a blog and I'm going to use it!