Wednesday, February 22, 2012

I have a blog

I've become that person. The person who has a blog but doesn't write in it! I've become my own worse nightmare. Am I being a little bit dramatic?, yes. But still, I never really thought I would be the person who would go to writing 5x's a week, to once a week (if that). Sorta like working out. I never thought that after having the habit of going to the gym 20x's in a month for two straight years, I would be the person to only go once a week (if that).
It's obvious that my life is changing, has dramatically changed. But does that mean I should let two things that I enjoyed doing in the past, be reflective of my present, and almost take notice in my future? For me, the honest answer is, no. Will some things take a shift in priority?, absolutely. I miss my workout's, and I miss my blog. I know that I won't be able to go to what I used to do: blog 5 nights a week, and workout 5 times a week. This isn't realistic. I have a new life, and I need to bring these two loves into this new life with the right amount of balance.
A new month is coming. Spring is coming, the time change is coming. Warmer weather is coming! I can not even tell you my excitement about this.
I have a plan, and have had a specific plan for awhile now. March will be the month of actual execution.
Chris and I have been living together for 7 months now. Things are great, we're getting married in another 7 doesn't 7 months ago seem like a lifetime ago?, but that the next 7 months are just going to fly by?! Crazy.
Anyways. I have some serious goals that I need to accomplish. When I ordered my wedding dress at the end of January, I was sized between a 16/18 (keep in mind wedding dresses run small), I ordered a size 14. The dress is due to arrive at the end of May/beginning of June. Which leaves me March/April/May to get down to that size 14. Once the dress arrives in the store I have 15 days to go in, try it on (make sure it is the right dress), and pay off the remaining balance. I want my dress to fit me when that happens. The actual alterations of the dress don't need to happen until end of July/beginning of August. ...which at that time, I'm hoping to be even smaller.
This is my first step of change. Admitting that I need to ...have to lose weight. Putting it out on my blog for the world to see, to hold me accountable. It's ridiculous really, because just about every time I go to eat something I have mantra go off in my head "wedding dress, wedding dress, wedding dress..." Unfortunately that mantra running in my mind has yet to be completely effective, but I can confidently say that I'm mentally ready. Ready to get back on the horse and finish what I started three years ago, and truly reach my goal of an ending weight of 150/155. I still have dreams of saying "I've lost 110/115 pounds". For my own mental well-being I need to complete what I've started, and finish what I set out to do so long ago. I need to be able to say that I did what I said I was going to do. Actions speak louder than words, and it is time to take action.
I have a blog and I'm going to use it!


Emily Foley said...

Woohoo! I'm so excited for you to meet your goal!

sarahlove said...

YOU CAN do it. Just do it April. Instead of just saying 'wedding dress' say, 'saving my life', 'prolong my life'.... you will meet your goal because that is what you do. You make things happen, it's not just about a dress- this is your future with the person you love... and future family. START NOW. Hugs!

Anonymous said...

Ms. "Denver Angel" the chap of Action!!!
That's all I have to say about that!

Love ya til it helps, MOT-B

PS I am joining the band wagon,
lose those love handles which are over rated!

Anonymous said...

April! You have a GOAL, great, half portions. Don't cut out the stuff that makes your taste buds smile. Remember, your future husband loves you just the way your are and I think you're BEAUTIFUL!

When my dress came in, mind you I had to wait 3 MONTHS for it plus loose 15 lbs....IT ENDED UP BEING THE WRONG DRESS (ha ha)!! Anyway, HAVE FUN, I look forward to seeing you around LTF soon. TMF :)